My unofficial theme song is “Slow Turning” by John Hiatt, who’s tied with Tom Waits as my favorite singer-songwriter. The chorus is what always got me: it’s just a slow turning from the inside out; a slow learning but you learn to sway. It’s about discovering that life is a process and how we (hopefully) gain a deeper understanding of that as we grow up.
But these lines from the song struck me recently:
You think you’ve come so far
In this one horse town
Then she’s laughin’ that crazy laugh
‘Cause you haven’t left the parking lot
While I’ve always taken that moment as a hilarious “laughing with, not at” slice of life that Hiatt is a master at capturing, sometimes my work and life feel like I haven’t left the parking lot. And I’ll hear my internal critic cackling at me from the back seat. Again. Then she’ll ask if she can ride shotgun. “Not just now,” I’ll say.
We all get stuck sometimes, I know. As a recovering perfectionist who became an expert procrastinator, I “think I’ve come so far” in my journey into joyful creative living, but I still fall into the trap of waiting for the perfect moment/conditions/windfall in order to get cranking. Meanwhile, I’m just circling around, waiting for the GPS to tell me which way to turn so I can get on the road to my next destination.
But here’s the thing: I have to begin somewhere. I can’t wait around for someone or something else to tell me where to go; that starts with me.
Well, actually I can wait around, but then I’ll be either lead a life that someone else wants for me or simply weather whatever storms life sends my way. I ditched that passive way of being in the rear view a while back. So when it looms in my field of vision again, I know just what to do: I hit the accelerator.
This week’s questions for you: Are you circling a parking lot somewhere in your life? What conditions or permission are you waiting on? What would happen if you just drove somewhere and discovered where it led, mishaps and unexpected roadside fruit stands or llamas and all? (Can I drag a metaphor around the block or what?)
Email me or post your answers in comments, and speaking of llamas, read on about a new Makearoo offering!
In the spirit of beginning, I’m developing an e-course called Love Yourself Silly: A Makearoo e-course on why loving yourself leads to loving your life (and other great stuff). Or, you know, “Love Yourself Silly” for short.
Why self-love? (Ahem: Not that self-love; I mean regarding yourself as your own best friend and treating yourself accordingly.) Because loving yourself is the hub to the wheel of everything else potentially marvelous in your life. We’ll spend a few weeks learning how to get to know, like, and love yourself and also understand why this matters so much. Permission to be wobbly and unsure of all of this is hereby granted, and creative exercises and silliness will definitely be part of the content.
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